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I got bored by creating new pages for every single thing,so I decided to make a separate page for random things,shitposts and etc.
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28.05.2026
Damn, I want to relapse badly,but damn.Cut cut cut X3
I have a slight existential crisis over christianity and theology too. I also tried to drive,but it touched my fragile ego and it made me feel vulnerable.
I also have to pass some theory test tomorrow(눈_눈)
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29.05.2026
I passed both succesfully ^^. I do not know what to do about kaomojis and dividers because they are often shown as random symbols and I do not have any idea how they look to different users.. They appear normal in Code redactor,but go freaky when I try to look at it through browser. I also think of changing font here.
I am sitting at my moms workplace and the Internet is so nasty here I am gonna blow up(＃￣0￣)..
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31.05.2026
I completed 1/3 of a sketchbook:P.I guess I am slightly conclicted/confused because all of that "spititual awakening" thing dissolved in everyday routine?? It feels a bit inappropriate or socially awkward to text it here to be honest. I also think of learning Tagalog(I forgot about that I was learning Japanese,Spanish and wanted to start to learn Chinese lol).
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01.06.2026
I am on some super duper important volunteer event:P. Children will do various things there. As I got this event is about international childrens day. But yet we are just boiling there without any purposeT^T.Maybe it is better than doing the "dirty" work at school(which some of my classmates do because they are not volunteers)??
Some boy and me were giggling there and watching other kids making badges.I DYED MY HAIR GUUYS:0
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02.06.2026
I was walking in a park w my mom,aunt and grandma!! There were lots of animatronics. I took some photos. I also was on a driving lesson(my instructor wanted to get rid of me lol)
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05.06.2026
I am currently looking after kids and I do not understand their schedule and what is going on. As I got we lost some of them(,_,). The main thing is that NOBODY explained me ANYTHING besides "just look after them so they wouldnt kill each other". They are playing uno.
I also want to change site style and make a separate css file,but idk how I will make everything.
Started to learn tagalog recently(despite it wont have any practical purpose). I do not have access to the Internet and I am bored and we need to go on another event soon and I am gonna dieeee:(. And it is hot here. Damn.
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09.07.2026
We are going to sea vacation tommorow!^^
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10.07.2026
On the way to the city:3. I want to straight my legs and my knees are hurting,but it isn't that bad. We are going by bus btw. We will be there tommorow. I am playing some roms on my phone and my mom is watching some sitcom on her phone:P. I am afraid that I will get tired by road trip laterT_T..
It is pretty late and somewhat dark. I want to drink water a lot,but idk when we are going to stop. There are lots of thunders out there:0.
I am pretty curious what are these flowers on the first photo tho.
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11.07.2026
First day on vacation! It isn't as hot as usual,but the water is cold as hell. We went to some market and bought many things(like clocks, sweets,fruits and a bag). I even switched our badges w some guy out there.
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12.07.2026
We played dominoes at the beach for around 2,5 hrs with my mom lol.
I am not sure if their compassion towards him made him change his mind over himself and what he did, but I assume that they would treat him differently if he wasnt a family member. They'd probably wouldnt be afraid for him just because he did something his at fault (some "magic karma" would caught him since he done something he shouldnt been doing). They would treat a stranger in a different way: they would be glad if somthing bad would happen to him.
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13.07.2026
I SMASHED 20 KG DISK ON FINGERS OF MT LEFT HAND. Can't crochet now((. Holding em in a cold water. It got somewhat better,but damn. It happened at early morning when my I tried to help my mom to move discs on exercise machine.
I am not sure if I need to rather kms or I can heal and not to gaf. I have a right for killing myself, isn't it?.. I want to change css somehow>:/
I don't believe I am clean for only 13 days,damn it.
My finger is still blue, I am overheated, periods are insane. I need some new hobby(?),I want to make a track(it'll be horrenduous if it'll ever happen) and we decided to not to eat junkfood(like burger king) anymore. It made me feel even worse ig. Did I forget to mension that I am overheated and my skin is burnt by sunlight?
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15.07.2026
My finger got better. We were on a cableway today. I am slightly suicidal,tbh. Maybe I'd cut myself if I'd have any actual private place to hide, but whatever. I think my mom does not like this vacation pretty much. But we walked a lot today.
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16.07.2026
Played with some preschool boy on beach X). He decided that it is fun to haul a random girl over the sea,lol. I think I burnt my skin on the beach. However,some woman there told my mom that I am white as hell and as if I was not on vacation under the sun.
Been thinking about relapsing tbh. We do not have any locks in bathroom in hotel,so..
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17.07.2026
We bought tons of useless things today.
I can't decide if I want to live and I am just in pain or I should simply die.
I think we walked over 12 km this evening. Pretty tired. We have to wake up at ≈5 am.
Still thinking of him tho. Mb I just cannot metabolise it. But I still think of what happened in one or another way and I do not know what to do about it.
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18.07.2026
We are going back to hometown. As I can see,the roadtrip will be long :/.
